I knew something deeper was missing in my life, but I was so lost I couldn’t even hear the whispers of Spirit anymore. After losing my father and ending a relationship, I didn’t have a way to process my pain. When a family friend of mine said, ‘I have the place for you,’ and told me about USM, I had the sense that this would be my last hope.
As a single, working mom of two kids for many years, it seemed I was always dealing with what was in front of me to do or fix. I didn’t have the time or skills to process my inner experience. So when I went to USM, something clicked. I had always pushed pain down. Now, I could finally share what was hurting inside of me. The level of trust I had for my fellow classmates and their genuine Heart-Centered Listening was so freeing and liberating. Once the supportive community became such a safe haven for me to open up and express emotions without criticism and judgment, everything began to shift for me.
During all the years I had worked with children and their mental and physical issues, I did not know my own inner child. My life was always about giving to others. It became clear that I didn’t really have a way to take care of myself, or my Spirit. After recognizing all the self-judgments I had been carrying throughout my life, Compassionate Self-Forgiveness was profoundly helpful. It gave me a whole new level of Self-loving, and the gift of deepening into my relationship with Spirit.
Then I began a project that changed my life. I wrote a children’s book called oh no jojo, about a fairy angel who thinks she can’t fly anymore. As a single mom of two kids, I was always saying, ‘Oh no! What am I going to do?’ because I lived life in a kind of panic, trying to make things happen. I described the fairy’s wings as a mosaic, because it was like my life—a lot of broken pieces coming together that made something beautiful. The other characters that help the fairy—“a sweet bee, a hardworking spider, and a wise snake who happens to be a vegan chef”—represent my fellow students who gave me wings by encouraging me. Writing that story was my healing journey, and now, my future too.
My first book, oh no jojo, was published through Balboa Press. I enjoy reading and sharing it with children at bookstores, schools, and hospitals, and most of the proceeds are going to St. Jude Children’s Research Hospital. Soon, I will share my stories at orphanages in Mexico because I want to share the lessons I learned at USM, and to simply stand in my Light and Peace. I am writing another children’s book called Bully Frog, about a school bully who changes his ways by dealing with his emotions. And now, when challenges arise, I don’t say, ‘Oh no!’ or let fear overtake me anymore. Instead, I use the tools of Spiritual Psychology to be present with myself and others with ease and grace. The whole journey has been so fun and rewarding.
It’s hard to express how grateful I am for my mentors, Drs. Ron and Mary Hulnick, and all of my classmates. Going to USM was a leap of faith for me, financially and emotionally, but it is unfolding in so many beautiful ways that I could never have imagined.
With an open heart, I live in a higher state of Awareness. I enjoy living in the beautiful unknown too. Since I have Awakened more into my Soul’s purpose, life has become much easier and sweeter. Now, I get to play.